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So today I went to hand in my form for special consideration which my  psychologist filled in last week. It was rejected because it was written more than 5 working days ago. Which is absolute bullshit. 

The exam didn't go too well. I forgot what a lot of things were, like echinoderms and ammonites etc. 

Went to a bar at uni after the exam and met up with a lot of people I knew. Got free drinks off guys without even asking - of course, but I didn't even want them. After the geology cruise 3 weeks ago, alcohol still makes me feel very sick. So I'd just give the drinks back to the people who gave them to me. 

I found I always had a circle of guys around me, with guys hugging me a lot every so often. At one point I felt like going to another uni bar which was about a 10-15min walk away, and 4 guys went with me because they all 'coincidentally' felt like it too. 

Chuck was at the other bar, but he left as soon as I turned up. I think he had somewhere to go, but I still wanted to talk to him. He basically ignored me, contrasted all the more with the 4 or 5 guys who asked me out tonight (and only 2 of them were guys I'd just met). 

I'm just so unhappy though. I look at them and think "no, I don't want to go out with you". I'm just so empty on the inside. 

I also have no shifts at Rebel sport for the next 3 weeks. I think it's because the manager is female and doesn't like me. Everyone else is getting at least a couple of shifts. I have none at all, and I work damn hard there. 

Nothing makes me feel any happier. Not hugs, not alcohol, not even a group of guys asking me out. It's all a bit ridiculous. 

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