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Theo appears to be officially together with that slut Natalie now. Yet another thing he lied about. I can barely keep track. Seems like in the past month, every single thing he said to me was a lie. Which hurts.
While my emotions are really repressed, I think deep down I had feelings for him. Then he hurt me a lot. I can rationalise it in my head - there are a lot of reasons why him and I would probably never have been officially 'together'. It's not that I'm not good enough for him, he's not good enough for me.
Doesn't make me feel any better though.
I have a final exam tomorrow. Unfortunately I have barely studied, since I expect to pass the subject. Which is disappointing because I have got a distinction average in that subject (cognitive and social psychology), yet will get a 'pass' on my transc
Applying for special consideration only means that I'll be allowed to sit the exam at a later date, but I won't study for it then either.
I don't rely on other people to make me happier anymore. Being close to others physically means nothing to me since the novelty wore off. Which is a good and bad thing. Good because it looks as though I have more self respect or something, but actually it just has no appeal to me at all. Nothing at all seems to make me actually happy. For some reason the words "just go kill yourself" keep running through my head.
I think I was somewhat more stable when I was working out 5-6 days a week. Such a shame I happen to be fairly seriously injured. I really really need a distraction.
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