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New job is pretty great. Everyone is really nice. Pay is pretty good too, for retail. About $18 an hour, double pay on Sundays. I get to do a whole lot of absolutely nothing. The staff I work with are great, so we just talk and sit around out of sight of the cameras when there are no customers around haha. 

Went to the physiotherapist and turns out things are worse than I thought with my back. Can't go to the gym or yoga indefinitely because things are so messed up. I think I might go to the gym tomorrow anyway, can't be getting fat. 

I was in a pretty good mood today until I got home and got yelled at and abused by both my parents. I'm kind of tired of hearing how worthless and annoying I am. My dad thinks that I'm "autistic and narcissistic" because I don't care that my mother is upset because her mother is dying overseas. I don't think it's out of order to not care about a batshit crazy woman who has spent her life being an awful mother. 

Sure it's sad that my grandmother is passing away, someone who basically raised me because my mother was/is so incompetent. But that part of my life is over, and I said goodbye to that person when she left Australia the last time. I've visited her twice since then, and she seemed to barely remember. Yes, it's sad, but it's inevitable, and she's had a long life. I don't think I'm being heartless. 

Last night I was up until almost 1:30am on Facebook talking to Chuck about random things. But I don't think I want to go out with him. I don't want LT now, but I want the person he was before he blocked and deleted me without telling me why. 

I still haven't managed to find the motivation to study yet. 

I really really need to move out.

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